Bunch of colors

I know nothing other than loving you. I seriously think that you're gradually leaving my side, you're actually abandoning me. I don't quite understand the reason or maybe I understand, I don't know. I want to insist that I did clarify and explain to you the person you'll meet and how much you may suffer if you fell in love with me. I don't want to share my future life with the very passive version of you but I badly want you. People say we don't fall in love for a specific reason, but we can fall apart instead. I kept asking you for loving me for the person I am and you did, you did it very well :') I also asked you to stay by my side, to make me feel safe, and to never let me feel the loneliness, but you didn't nor in a single way or for a single time. Two persons are fighting inside of me, I do not know which one of them will win this fight, I want you badly and I'm terrified to share my life with you. Are you okay? did I hurt you that bad? I d

I hate to admit it but I guess that I don't really fit in relationships despite the fact that I flourish during the phase, but I still don't know how to control my feelings and I guess I'll never will. I don't quite know how to keep everything in shape, either work, body shape, social life and most importantly the only thing I always find myself good at which is sadly, studying. Problem is never related to the person I'm in love with, but the person I'm and how emotional I get as well as the sense of responsibility I strongly encounter. It's pretty good to be a giver, you just need to understand that being the very best version of yourself whether in school, work or whatever is considered a personal gain to you never lessen the effort you exert for your partner nor make you a bad person. You can make him your first priority and still do good for yourself, certainly this will make him happy too ;)

 Back to writing about people, but this time I can proudly announce that I did not only meet someone cute, but a safe place where I can hide, heal and mend my soul. I guess I can say that I have finally met my soulmate, someone who can have a soft heart for me & yet be the most handsome, considerate, understanding, caring and most importantly a backbone that I can lean on, forever and always Dear lavlovy, 7ob 7yaty & the bringer of Fegla to my life :'D I'm in love with your smile, your voice, your eyes, I love it when we get closer while taking a photo, I love listening to you during classes, watching how you deal with students in a very gentle, caring and passionate way. I love how you calmly handle my bad temper and my mood swings. Also, how you're so patient and how you're always keen on keeping our bond forever. I thought I was in love before, now I'm sure it was not :') I love you in a way I did not before. You're so precious, different and alwa

Back to my favorite and only way of expressing my feelings. Last time I wrote here, I swore to God that I'll never come back crying about a person or a thing that is not worth the hassle. And I can proudly say that I did. However, I still give people a lot more than they deserve but let me say it, I'm not even sorry :) I finally came to an understanding that I really have a good heart, not a one that hold grudges or keep chasing people for the sake of revenge, never was, never will be. I'm sorry I believed so before. But if someone thinks that I was that kind of people, then I'm utterly sorry, please consider it an indiscretion. Still working on a lot of self-destructive thoughts tho. I guess I'm a bit proud of the person I'm today, at least I finally know what's meant by time management, although all people won't agree on that, but I can feel it, I really am. I just think it's a bit too much for me to handle but at the end, I know how to get ev

مفتقده إحساس البست فريند فى الفتره الاخيره. مش عارفه ايه ناقصنى عشان احس تانى الدنيا كويسة و انه I already got the whole world just by having you by my side.

حبيت اسجل اللحظة المهمه دى و اقول ان مؤخراً ماما بقت اقرب حد ليا و رغم انى بحب اعمل كل حاجة لوحدى بقيت احب اعمل كل حاجة معاها. الفترة الاخيرة كمان كان فى فراغ كبير فى حياتى مفيش حاجة عارفة تملاه غير ماما. بتفضل تتفرج معايا علي مسلسلاتى التافهه بدون زهق D': بقت اول واحدة بكلمها لو حصلى اى مشكلة او اى حاجة حلوة. الحمدلله انها موجودة فى حياتى والله💕