A series of maybe-s and don't know-s

I don't think I'm stable, maybe I'm. I don't know, but thinking about dying is a brand new thing for me, I don't usually think this way. Is it because I'm weak? cause I'm not, maybe I'm, I don't know.

Leaving is the only thing I'm thinking about lately, I want to end it, can I? I've been always brave, but never that brave or maybe I'm, I don't know.

I love you people, why did you stop loving me? am I hard to love? did I hurt you? Did I make your life more miserable? didn't I help you with anything? cause I used to be a person who doesn't hurt people and insists on making people's lives easier and comfier, did I stop being this person? or I never was one? I don't know.

life is way harder than I thought, finding people who are always here to support and can bear all the things for you is never easy-peasy, but I loved you all easily, I supported you all and never had second thoughts about doing so. I've always been here for you, I barely choose to leave anyone's side why couldn't you do this for me? I really don't know.

I guess I'm consumed, I don't know.


I don't know many things but I know that I no longer fit in this world.


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